Sunday, December 17, 2006
@ 12:49 AM
Last few days was indeed eventful with my first real working experience at jet aviation...stock taking n manual work...indeed though tiring, it wad definately a fun n enjoyable experience..wat with workin with my sec sch frens-ckl, eileen, chow yoke n eugene....we talk, laughed, joked, played n do all sorts of wierd stuff together...onli 3 days but i miss that closeness with sec sch frens,that we hardly have any pretenses but can really say wats in our mind, our feelings. our 4 year friendships is really different frm now in jc where alot are hi-bye frens n i actually dun hav much to talk to de...i really miss those times in gm, the recesses, extra lessons, dance, stayin back in class to do teacher's day present n so much more...but in spite of the great memories, we all have to move on, have to go our separate ways to really grow, to mature, to be independent, to experience new things, to take up more challenges...i think this past year the challenges are more then wat i go through all the years before added together hahaz...wat with goin ac for first 3 months alone, in ex-co, joining usher, leading games, n others...but then, its not enough, i need to really step away frm wat i've been comfortable with these past years, to goin into the realm of unknown, so i can really know wats my calling, to really breakthrough to another level, to a deeper level, closer to wat God wans me to do. When u are sick of staying the same, u muz step out n be determine to change, otherwise, u may forever stay at that level n feel restless, without meaning all your life, juz goin through the motions of surviving, of routine and never really feel real in this world, never feel the ground and wat greatness it holds. i admit i'm starting to feel veri restless at wat i am, at this stage of stagnancy. i really need to change, to breakforth into a new realm. i need to be determine, to find my goals, to know my aims, to learn of my calling. even more, i have to catch the fire, to let it burn with more intensity every time, to be radical for God, to be all out for Him. i may take some time to change, to know where to start, to really do something of significance, but i believe that i'll breakthrough. that as i remain faithful in God, even as i renew my prayer life, to have a heart that is after God, i will catch the fire, i will be rara for Him, to wanna bring others to know Him. even as Christmas is drawing near, this joyous occasion, i wanna share the through meaning of christmas with my frens.
k then, even as i end this entry, i wanna be able to influence, to transform, to mature. may E432 really be all out for God and really be hyped out in this season n have the spirit of youths!!!
---aint no giant big enough---
---im stepping out, im breaking out, im shaking my fears....---