Ok....lol i dun noe how i "psycho" myself into writting another blog entry but oh well...gotta keep those spiderwebs at bay...hahaz

well....to say the obvious stuff first---i've got my a levels results!!! hahaz the excitment of gettin it has already fade away.... but thinkin of that day now... reflecting back on my anxiety and thoughts.......i took leave on that day and went ckl's house to accompany each other and to pray together.....think it was a good time spent together =) plus the conference prayer the night before really gave me a good sleep and peace in me...prayer do indeed work wonders =) its really a source of comfort as you pray together, for the same vision or goal, to be able to understand the each other's emotions and thoughts...Then---it was time to go to school hahaz....really could feel the butterflies in my stomach as we got nearer to school...met wee shi at the mrt and walked to school together. It has been ages since i walked that road and yet, i still remember those times i walked there to go to cg, to go bugis library study...well that walk down that road, i may never be able to walk there again cuz my chapter in that place is closed...come to think of it, i've really graduated from JC and need to move on to another chapter, to UNI....easier said than done cuz i've always feel sheltered in sec sch, in jc even...but in uni, it'll be a time to cast away my childishness and my naivitee...hahaz not to say that i'm veri childish and naive, but really cuz i've got to be truly independent....which is a scary thing to face, HOWEVER, i'll face it with courage from God, from the loved ones He placed by my side =) Indeed, my teenage years will be over as i step into the 20 years of life next year...ahahaz i'm feelin time really passes real quick....yup so i took my results in the hall...as i walked into the school premises, i felt like it was really noisy...i forgot how schools can be filled with all the noises of students talking, teasing, discussing and all the excitment there....so as both of us walked into the hall...i felt really wierd...not to say that i'm not scared, but i think i felt prepared, i felt a sense of calm...and i believe its really God at work =) previously i was like confessing positive things to God and really jux put wahtever thats in my mind to God...so as i took the results and look at it i was calm...and i see others sad or crying, i thought to myself that hey, its ok, whatever my results may be, whereever i may go, its in God's hands....so yup i was fine...but i was super drained hahaz...went to aljunied library to chill cuz cg was there that day...and my mind was jux numb and blank...i suppose its juz the aftermath of taking my results hahaz...so yup =) JC is really over...

and now....

Even as i'm sitting here typing, i can feel the pressure on me...thoough i'm trying to ignore that nagging thought in my head bout choosing a university, its at the back of my mind swirling about...(I'm reminded of harry potter---hahaz---wat professor snape did with the memories..lol) anyway....i'm still deciding...God, help me to be wise in my decisions...

went smu open house today...but me and ckl juz took brochures and went to mac to sit down and juz talk hahaz....fruitful in a way too hahaz...

yup...i'm tired in my mind le hahaz...so think i'm goin to bed soon....cuz it feels as if i'm juz rambling about....without much organisation and thought