holidays now after the trauma of exams... (i could complain alot but i decided that its just plain futile.... ) 

i realized once again how much i like to be able to just stay home, to read or watch drama without a care for exams or tutorials and just be able to relax my mind and my soul... its so good to be able to just stay home... despite that i think i need to find some stuff to occupy my time otherwise im really gonna rot for 3 months.. haha debating whether to go find a job - preferably one that is flexible and pays well... (if anyone got a good offer can let me know =) )

still have lots to accomplish this holiday such as cleaning up my room... i should really not procrastinate on  this particular chore!!

anyway on another note, im really enjoying myself in BLTC..really learned a lot and being ministered to everyweek... especially the recent lesson that passed. i felt that this burden inside of me is being lifted up and know that i can always cry out to God. i cant express how i feel in words, or my relief and joy that i felt. it makes me wanna draw closer to God, to know Him even more. I know that im not doing all these in vain, i know that He sees even if man doesnt. i know that i still wanna serve Him, whereever, whenever i can... not just in my convenience, but especially when its inconvenient. i wanna be a servant who leads and not just a leader who serve. to be God-oriented instead of self-oriented. to be people-oriented instead of task-oriented. in a way, im too far ahead to go back to where i used to be and i never wanna go back to where i was but continue to move forward, despite the unknown, despite the addition responsibilities but i know more importantly is that im running this race towards God, towards where He wants me to be. =)

~freely willing~

(^^)