this holiday is filled with stuff, like AC, driving etc... but definitely i still have time to slack off!! AHHA which is really important after such a tiring sem and i wanna get back some of the freedom of just lazing around and without worries...

but i realize, you can always laze around, tryin to forget unhappy or worrisome stuff through reading mangas, watching dramas, but worries and troubles will always still be there, together with people who made you upset or are disappointed with...

i thought that this holiday, i was given a chance to learn something new, to grow but then, the reality does not seem so... the path of learning is not as easy as it seems, filled with ups and downs. sometimes i feel like that mountain is too high for me to overcome, the ups seems to tough and the peak of it seems so far away. the downs seem so deep that i feel like i cant get out.

and people. they are unpredictable. sometimes unreliable. despite the things you have asked them not to do, they still go ahead and do it even when they promised not to do it. true, they may be good friends who help you and are angry for you but then, you gotta respect the wishes of the one in the situation too. and i've learnt that i should be wiser in my words. i have a quiet personality and many a times i don't like it. but sometimes when i reflect back, i think its better that i did not say as much.

misunderstandings happen. yes, it takes 2 hands to clap. so yes, i do apologize. but then, is my side heard? or felt? or rather think that i should just step out and breakthrough?

many things are easier said then done. different people have different way of analyzing and valuing a problem or issue. it may be easy for one but difficult for another. different personalities, different talents, different strengths and weakness are the cause. we shouldnt look down on another person just because they have the trouble accomplishing what you have already accomplished.

with all that said and done, i still trust that i am placed here for a reason. i may not like where i am now, i may not like the surrounding circumstance and decisions, but i will try my hardest to put on a half glass full attitude and face the issues squarely.

and true, there are friends and people who disappoint, but i do remember, i may be that person too, who may disappoint or irritate another, so i gotta learn to forgive and forget. friendships are important to me, and yes, i may not say it often, but every single friend i have is precious to me. i wanna thank God that i still carry hope and His joy in me, to breakthrough from whatever bind i am in now.

smiles and laughter works =)