October is already ending in a week's time... how fast time flies and 2010 is left with a little more than 2 months! well, 2010 has been exciting, what with passing my driving and all that. but also can't wait for what the rest of 2010 holds for me :D exams for this sem (can't believe this can be a good thing!), christmas and more practicing of my driving :X and so on... as for right now, i'm just in the midst of projects and trying to keep up with my readings... well recently i've been thinking about the fact that i'm gonna graduate next sem, somehow i still can't believe that its gonna be the end of my student life soon.. i really love school/campus life. truth to be told, i'll rather stick to studying than going out to face the workforce. but on the other hand, blind studying and stubbornly force myself to study something that i can't to avoid going to work is also a stupid choice. soooo, i just have to get round to the fact that hey, i'm graduating next sem and to go find a job. but all in all, i'll not forget that God has a plan for me and that although i do not believe its gonna be easy, i'll preserver and press on for i know that it is definitely worth it! so till then, i'll be enjoying my student life and try not to be so guilty about playing in the midst of studying hahaha!

and i've been really thinking about positive thinking. Positive thinking is such a powerful and amazing tool. some may say that we're trying to bluff ourselves or that we want to avoid reality. but i beg to differ, positive thinking is not about avoiding reality, but rather, in the face of reality, we hold on to the hope of better things to come. not just because we have God on our side, but even in the economics sense, when there is a down, there will definitely be an up in the future. that's how yield curves come about, how business cycles are always that, a cycle. but more importantly, it is because that i have a God that is greater than my problems, a God that promises us blessings and His inheritance, a God that is merciful and so loving... it is because of all that, that even more as a christian, we can't lose hope, we can't be bogged down by negative thoughts because God will definitely come true for us. so don't give up hope, don't say we can't do it, don't think that everyone is giving up on you, nor feel that you're alone in this world. cause that is a big mistake. God is by our side, today and forevermore. and also, we should stop being childish and only look at ourselves, only think that everyone is disappointing you. but rather, look at the positive side of people, believe in them and not doubt them. even if they really did something wrong before or disappointed you before, its time to give them another chance, just like how God forgives us again and again. but let's strive not to make the same mistakes. but also, try to put yourself in their shoes, try to think out of the box or not be so narrow-minded, we may think others disappoint us, but maybe we should think again and look at ourselves instead. many a times, we are not out to hurt others or to disappoint others, more often than not, we are trying to portray the best of ourselves. however, we're not super beings nor people who can please every single one out there. don't put yourself down just because you put yourself in the middle of every situation and find that actually, you shouldn't be there. life is better spend thinking of the positive than the negative.