Well well well... back here again after so long. What with 8 july coming and all, I'm gonna be an official graduate and will be thrown into the adult world, no longer will i be able to say that i'm a student. sounds sad? i guess it does, at least to me. But i know that a book has many chapters, starting from the prelude to the intro to the body and conflicts and then to the resolution and conclusion, and even an epilogue. What's more to say that life itself has so much more chapters, so much more conflicts and ups and downs and transitions. But ultimately, once you get to the conclusion and epilogue, it's the whole story from the start to the end that frames the whole conclusion, it's not just about the happy times but also about how we've overcome the bad, how we've pulled ourselves out of the sadness, how we've grown and mature and finally, when we come to the end, we can look back and say we've led a meaningful and fulfilling life. But i'm jumping the gun, right here right now, it's only the start of better things to come, more challenges to face and overcome, more responsibilities to take on and stretch myself. Despite being afraid and apprehensive and thinking that even before i start, there's so many things and things doesnt seem to want to go the right way, I still look forward, having the hope that things would get better, that i'll be able to overcome. And right now, i'm praying that all will go well. Its not easy, and it will not ever be easy, but what i can do is to trust in God and to always do my best. :)

And moving on from the pensive thoughts, i've just came back from Seoul and it was a trip filled with wind and rain! at least, the last 2 days had some clear skies for us to shop! bought quite a number of things but one thing i regretted not buying is JGS's CD! argh! should have just bought it! lol! but oh wells, overall it was an interesting trip trying homestaying, having lots of fun shopping and all that. :) last trip before my official graduation :)

oh ya, also wanted to pen down some of the thoughts that i'm having... hahah and i think that was the true reason why im posting this post.

frustration. thats something that i hate. frustrated at being helpless, at why things turn out this way, at why i cant turn back time so that now wouldnt be so mafan, at why i accepted it all and now find myself struggling or just fed up with all the things.

remembrance. bringing me back to the reason why i said yes, why i agreed, why i persevere on until now.

finding joy. in the Lord, which keeps me going.

finding comfort and rest. in the Lord, which gives me the strength to carry on.

finding peace. in the Lord, which makes me find my path once again.

finding hope. in the Lord, which allows me to move on from past mistakes.

finding love. in the Lord, which gives me the reason for everything.